I am a little devastated here.
Despite working hard, after every paper, i feel crushed.
Let’s talk about today,
I did 2 stupid things, :
1) at 8.20am,(my exam starts at 9am)i suddenly realised i’ve MISPLACED my student ID. darn….. i was looking for it high and low, ransacked my bedroom, my school bag,my wallet…..everything! but my student ID was nowhere to be seen. DAMN!!!!! Then i suddenly remembered my jacket i brought to the library on tuesday, AH!!! there it is…. dang!!!!
2) i nearly tripped at the stairs on the way back to hostel after exams. Erm… i don’t know why, perhaps i was day-dreaming, wasnt concentrating my the steps i supposed….i said nearly tripped, i didnt fall.
Other than these, i seriously hope i wasnt being foolish when i was in the exam hall especially when i was attempting my questions. ah….
“How was ur exam?” this is one of the question that i have absolutely no idea how to answer. ‘erm…. well, i guess…. erm… I Don’t know.’ I did my best that’s all i can say. “difficult?” “Got confidence?” ‘erm…. i really don’t know’. My answer to all is the same : I’ve done my best. i gave my best shot. and that’s all that matters.
The scenario in the exam hall is nothing else but like any normal rat race and paper chase scene in our daily life. Racing against time, nerve cells racing like mad to get connected at the synapses to transmit ceaseless impulses sent during that 3 hours…..BOOM! Not forgetting to mention about my heart beating faster and faster, the sudden adrenaline rise is making me feeling butterflies in my stomach, and i dont even remember myself breathing until i walk out of the exam hall. I was like : eh i’m still breathing eh,I dont realise that earlier. (=.=, breathing is involuntary duh~!) Paper chase pulak, non stop writing even i can feel my arm sore…. my arm says : tak larat dah, too much lactic acid, very SOUR!!!! but my mind says: nak fail ke nak sakit? So, i chose to endure the muscle fatigue….
I’m heading to the library later to push myself for the very last paper, the very last chance to do my best for semester one. Thumbs up for myself for not procrastinating through out this preparation process. I’ll work harder next time if i still can’t make it through. (touchwood)
bye.
-huifang-
ps: My 2nd wisdom tooth is coming out. But i dont feel myself any wiser than before.