MPO

Exactly one week ago, i had my first opportunity to enjoy MPO live after longing to be there for years since i was exposed to classical music. I think that was back in my high school days when i learnt how to conduct the harmonica band. *Swaying the conductor baton * 😛
The performance by Sarah Chang with the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra was magnificent. Tickets were bought without knowing the program scheduled for the performance. Nonetheless, i was bedazzled by the songs.
The first song performed was Fireworks by Stravinsky. The piece lasted for just 4mins, as though fireworks shooting high in the skies full of momentum.
The second piece was Dvorak’s violin concerto in A minor. Worldclass violinist Sarah Chang presented the song perfectly. Every single expresssion, brought me back to the classical sonata period, as if time-travelled back to the past. Bravo, Sarah! Will continue to support your music. 🙂
The third piece was solely by the MPO, Symphony No.10 in E minor by Shostakovich. The Tenth, considered as his greatest symphony, gives a dark introspective style. The deepest impression about this piece I had was the contrast of a breathless silence which ended the first movement to the second which was intense. It brought me into a oto-rollercoster ride, leaving me emotionally drained when the last sound came to an abrupt stop.

My first MPO live experience. Thankful for a dream came true. Hoping for more to come in the future.

A night not to be forgotten.

-HuiFY-

Magnum

Decided to pay a visit to Magnum @ MidValley to experience the popular trendy way of eating ice cream.

In order to be entitled for a table to be seated, we gotta order a dish from the menu. This was what we ordered : Biscuits (childhood relived by the binbinmiguo) taroball soaked in soya milk served together with a magnum vanilla ice cream. A source of protein I would say.

Meanwhile, me and Tze Yee (weh, congratulations once again on your engagement!) went to queue up to customise our very own magnum. Time to play around with food and creativity. Both mind blown and mindf*cked!

Queueing up excited like children! Ice-cream time! Yay *monologue screams*

Guess which one is mine? Tip: the one that looks healthier, cz even when I snack, I gotta snack healthy! 😛

Look at them Goji berries and pistachios! Slurp. 🙂

Golden nuggets and rose petals.

No one is too busy for desserts. Till we meet again Tze Yee. Thank you for your time. XOXO

Photo credits to the canggih technology of DSC-RX100 III. You know who you are. 🙂 thank you.

-HuiFY-

五月

默默地躲在被单里，让泪水放纵地流。
只觉得很无助，什么都帮不上忙。
看到妈开始责怪自己，我已开始害怕。
也许我也很自私，我不希望您走，
也许不是因为我真的很爱你，
就只是不想我妈有机会责怪她自己，
对不起，我只不过更爱我妈，
只不过想保护她而已。
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有时是不懂自己为什么那么天真，总是被朋友们作弄？
从小到大都这样，家人也好，亲人也好，朋友也好，总是作弄我。
我信任你们，才相信你们说的话，你们却觉得很好玩。
你们可知道我的感受吗？
发现自己被作弄后，只好忍着眼泪笑着说： 不要紧，不要那么小器…….没事了…
-慧芳-

They said…

They said, “No matter how hard the past was, you can always begin again”.
I said, “No matter how much confidence and faith I reassure myself, fear strikes me again and again”.

They said, “You have been single for such a long time, go out there meet someone and go for it!”
I said, “I keep meeting the wrong ones, and I’m afraid of making wrong decisions over and over again.”

They said, “You are too tough, too independent, you need to be more feminine…”
I said, “If I’m not independent, I have no one to rely on. I cannot be weak because no one will be there for me. I am feminine, but only in front of deserving people”.

They asked, “Do you have someone special in mind whom you cannot let go?”
I replied, “No, no one is worth holding on after being fooled by fate…”

They asked, ” What do you look for in your future relationship?”
I replied, “Simple happiness, sharing of ups and downs, respect each other,being loved and being able to love, feel protected and secure, and be able to laugh and cry like that little girl I once was, no lies, no hurtful words, no violence…”

They said, “Always utter goodbye in advance, because when the end really comes, you won’t get the chance to utter the word anymore.”
I said, “I live in the present, not the past, neither the future, I don’t want to burden myself thinking of the future and reminiscing the past.”

-Hui Fang-
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Ps: Earth hour performance went very well, I am very grateful and thankful to all my team mates who had put in their time and effort ( esp the drummer who kept his opinion until after the performance to tell me that he did not like my song) to practise with me. This will be a memory I’d treasure when I decide to stop doing music in the near future.

N

There were so many things i wanted to share, but no one would listen…..
They just laughed at me…
There were so many similarities between the two.
They made me wonder if I am delusioning, or they just happened to be similar.
I hope I am not living under their shadows, that blind my judgement affecting each decision I have to make.
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One more day left to earth hour performance.
At first I was looking forward to it, but not anymore.
Obstacles were thrown at me almost every weekly, I felt like a pathetic keyboardist, percussionists keep putting me on aeroplane, leaving me in limbo.
I’d burst into tears, but I told myself to be sporting, to be cool, the worst scenario would be the MIA plan, fret not Hui Fang, fret not.
ps: the title was merely random alphabet, my dear partnerincrime.
-hui fang-

What I learnt from running

It has been a while since I have time to rant on my blog again. An unpredictable event happened a few months back, and my world almost collapses because I just couldn’t accept the fact. I felt like all the efforts I had put in all these while were in vain. I was crushed by fate. And then buddies and family keeps telling me every cloud has a silver lining, perhaps I was meant to do something else. To date, I’m still lost, but I shall never give up.
Been keeping up with running to take my mind off these problems, and running taught me several life lessons which I would like to pen down in my blog.

1) I AM STRONGER THAN I THINK
Every additional steps i made at the end of each round made me realize that I can go further than the before.

2) Every run is different
There were times when i ran the same path at the same time two days in a row but felt like the queen of the world one day and the scum of earth the next.

3) A fine line exists between being in pain and being injured
There were times when i keep running (when im all stressed up) until my calf muscles sore, yet I wouldn’t want to stop because the soreness made me feel good. I guessed i need to learn where my line is and when to stop.

4) Take rest days

5) The magical and indescribable link between my very own comfortable pace and playlist

6) Sometimes, I’d rather skip happy hours hanging out with friends because I really look forward to my regular evening runs as the latter keeps my endorphins circulated.

7) Running is all about myself. I am the one who determine my own goals at achieve the goals at my best pace. The only thing holding myself back is my own mind.

Adapted from “Life Lessons From Running”- The Huffington Post.

– HuiFang –

压力·忧郁

我将会成为一位药剂师，

可是我没办法阻止家人乱吃保健品.

外人的话永远都是比较有说服力。

妹越来越叛逆，

想跟妹说，压力不只是聪明的人有，

像我那么不够聪明的也有很多的压力。

大家告诉你的，只是为了你的前途好。

你不懂得珍惜大家对你的好，

总有一天你会后悔莫及。

我对你们都很失望。

很多时候，我也你很想大声呐喊：

我想要的只不过是你们过得更好！

到最后却给自己制造很大的压力，

因为你们都不懂得珍惜，不理智。

我失望，我忧郁，

除了写部落格，还能向谁倾诉呢？

-慧芳-

Some words were better left unsaid.

很想跟我的好姐妹们说，

之前跟你们说过， 有一天我会把心里那些话说出来，

我改变主意了。

我变了，理智了。

有些话，只好永远藏在心里，没有必要说出来，因为改变不了事实。

就算遗憾，也只不过是回不去的曾经。

若有一天，你看到了这些废话，

我想说，很庆幸认识你，让我找到那不知天高地厚的勇气去尝试做实验写论文。

你永远是我仰慕的朋友。

-慧芳-

重来

如果生命可以重来，我不想当现在的我。

说我不懂得珍惜也好，什么都好，就是不想。

不知道为什么，也不想解释为什么。

Longest day to date

I wanted today to end as soon as possible, all the photos of mortarboards remind me of where I targeted myself to be, not where I am today.
Nonetheless, I had learnt a lot that i had not expected, be it from my research or from my part time community pharmacy working experience.
I had not pictured myself to take up research, had not imagined myself to be able to produce my own dissertation, presenting my poster….
I definitely had underestimated how an inspiration from a friend can be such a motivation to hold on to the project till a wrap.
I thank Buddha for everything that happened but I thought I am much stronger than this. All day on duty at the pharmacy I just wished that today will come to an end as soon as possible.  For all the tears that flowed, I shall not forget, 131013 was the day i was supposed to put on my graduation robe.
-Hui Fang-